Crocheted my first hat. It’s rather large, but it doesn’t squish my hair down… sweet.

Soooo… I am waiting till Valentines day to bake something. Maybe a mini rainbow cake? I would REALLY like to make strawberry matcha cupcakes, or plain matcha cupcakes, but that would mean ordering some matcha powder. Might as well, I’ve wanted some for so long. In the mean time here are some pretty inspirational yums.

*dorky baking giddiness*

Last year around this time, Seth and I were exploring Perrysburg in the snow. I think we might need to do it again. Starting to feel like a shut-in. Maybe it will warm up in the 30s and being outside will be more fun. I am getting restless. We don’t know whats going to happen in the next few months. Seth’s almost done with his website and will be applying to things soon.  We want to move, but we don’t know where or when it’s going to happen. I feel like I’m waiting. I can’t wait to move into a new apartment. I love ours, but it has never felt completely comfortable or inspiring. More like a box with a bad furniture layout. I will miss living above shops and right beside the river, but the actual inside I can be completely happy changing. I also need a job change. Don’t know what, but this routine and place that I am in is sucking my energy and waring on me emotionally.  For now, I will play in the snow, and wait.

Seth made awesome chili yesterday. Super spicy and perfect for how freaking cold it is out. Beef, tomatoes, peppers, onions, garlic, salsa, chipotle peppers, beer (1 and a 1/2 bottles), tomato paste = yum.

It’s supposed to warm up and get into the 30s later in the week! EXCITED! We will be able to take walks without completely freezing.

This may be the most awesome cat I have seen. I REALLY want a fluffy cat. It’s tail is ginormous!!!

Ginormous fluffy cat found here.

I hate new year resolutions. There shouldn’t be a designated day that I should change what I do, how I do, and how I think. This year things seem different. Things have been building over the past 6 months, and suddenly in the past few days, they have started to change. Seth has been working on his website obsessively. Sam’s work hours have been getting back to normal, shes getting over all her sickness, and is able to start balancing things again. For me, it’s not that drastic and I can’t exactly figure out how I feel different. Ive been needing and wanting things Ive experienced before but had either been too afraid or too emotional to realize I needed… I want to drink wine out of a mug, eat simple food, wear t-shirts, clogs covered in paint, and hats, listen to music while I design and paint instead of needing the TV on, do what I want to be doing even when people are over, which will let them see who I really am, accepting my circumstances and not ‘needing’ things to be different in order to accomplish anything, and I don’t want to get overwhelmed by what I ’should’ be doing, and just do. Ive been afraid and overwhelmed and have not done what I wanted.  Im just exhausted by it. I am going to spend time with positive friends who will support what I want to do and who I can share it with. I’m looking for mutual respect and inspiration… It’s time to emotionally calm down and be myself. Plus, no matter what, I have more support than I could have ever asked for,

With a mug of wine, Cheers!

It’s going to be another good year.