This is what I need. I know it is a horrible thing to say right after getting married, but it isn’t like it sounds. I can’t separate myself from everyday things, events, stresses, and distractions. I need to explore, sit, appreciate, think (not about everything I need to do or worry about), and regain perspective. Since I moved back from New York, I have kept getting farther and farther away from any kind of introspective thought, and have lost my curiosity and appreciation of things that used to be important. My concerns have moved to material things like home, work, and trying to find a purpose among all the clutter. I feel like a majority of my life is spent going through motions that mean nothing to me. I want to put my energy into something important, and not work that I don’t care about. Many great things have happened in this span of time that I am grateful for, but there has defiantly been things lost. I have no idea how to go about living, and thinking how I would like. The drastic changes I need to make seem daunting and very overwhelming.

I would love to do one of these.

1. by Dawn B last 3:20 pm

   You are not alone. A lot of what you wrote above is in my head too (minus the living in NY and the marriage thing). I would do volunteer work related to animals, tho

   Thanks for putting the thoughts into words on ‘paper’!