Sometimes, looking at artwork can hurt. I search images online, read articles, become inspired in little ways. Then comes other things. I don’t have time, I don’t know what to create, I won’t be able to even if I tried. Fear. This thought progression can be crippling. Its worse when it mixes with realizing most of my time is spent on something with little importance to me. Most creative blogs I read are very positive and full of daily experience. Do people emotionally struggle with their creativity? If so, is it better to keep it hidden and only release the uplifting and inspiring?
These sometimes irrational emotions do have a yang. It is hard to explain what this is, but its a feeling, a sense of self that is difficult to touch. It is sometimes all consuming and could be compared to sadness, but it isn’t. I am sure there are many people who experience something similar but would describe it differently. I feel whole, fully experiencing and connected to everything in me. It happens every once and awhile, unfortunately less lately than usual. I probably haven’t been surrounding myself with things to trigger it. I’m talking about it, however, because I came across something the other day that brought it back. If I could I would throw myself into it as an experience. Learn, try and experiment. I don’t want to explain what it is because I don’t want to give miss information, but I found this article first. Ive been drawn to this kind of design and artwork, and process and purpose for a long time. But it more directly involves the style I have gravitated toward, but did not know was it’s own practice from other forms of illumination. I felt it.
love this! you should definitely do it!