I hate new year resolutions. There shouldn’t be a designated day that I should change what I do, how I do, and how I think. This year things seem different. Things have been building over the past 6 months, and suddenly in the past few days, they have started to change. Seth has been working on his website obsessively. Sam’s work hours have been getting back to normal, shes getting over all her sickness, and is able to start balancing things again. For me, it’s not that drastic and I can’t exactly figure out how I feel different. Ive been needing and wanting things Ive experienced before but had either been too afraid or too emotional to realize I needed… I want to drink wine out of a mug, eat simple food, wear t-shirts, clogs covered in paint, and hats, listen to music while I design and paint instead of needing the TV on, do what I want to be doing even when people are over, which will let them see who I really am, accepting my circumstances and not ‘needing’ things to be different in order to accomplish anything, and I don’t want to get overwhelmed by what I ‘should’ be doing, and just do. Ive been afraid and overwhelmed and have not done what I wanted.  Im just exhausted by it. I am going to spend time with positive friends who will support what I want to do and who I can share it with. I’m looking for mutual respect and inspiration… It’s time to emotionally calm down and be myself. Plus, no matter what, I have more support than I could have ever asked for,

With a mug of wine, Cheers!

It’s going to be another good year.